big problem

have you ever done a huge mistake and end up causing huge problems in your life?
the problem is really torturing us.  we want to share it with other people, but we are confused. we are afraid that if we share our problems with other people, other people will know our very embarrassing mistake.
finally we just bury the problem alone.
but in fact we can't solve the problem alone, we need other people, because overtime the problem undermines us and when the day even more diligent to bill the solution.
it's like when we sink, even it's hard to breathe and this is so horrible

bad song haha

I got a recommendation from dian about a bad song, bad song why? because the lyrics are very sarcastic huhuhuhu
This song made ​​me trapped in a dilemma, it's about how you want someone you love know that you love him.
the problem is we live in Indonesia with the tradition that a man has the special right to vote and declare his love while a woman must accept her fate by elate that a woman is unethical to declare first to a man that she fell in love with and satisfied only with waiting for him or she may reject the declarations of love that comes from the men.

do not believe? want proof? here it is

WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE

by. Endah Widiastuti

i love you but it's not so easy

to make you're here with me
i wanna touch and hold you forever
but you're still in my dream

and i can't stand to wait till night is coming to my life
  i still have a time to break a silence

reff:
when you love someone just be brave to say
that you want him to be with you
when u hold your love, don't ever let it go
or you will loose your chance to make your dreams come true

i used to hide and watch you from a distance
then i knew you realize
i wish looking for a time to get closer
at least to say hello


now i can't stand to wait your love is coming to my life
reff

And I never thought that I’m so strong
I stuck on you and wait so long
but when love comes it can’t be wrong
Don’t ever give up just try and try to get what you want
Cause love will find the way

don't never give up this
try try to get what you want
cause love will find a way

reff

 

no matter what they say, truly in the deepest part of my heart I want you to know that I love you, not to prove to whoever or  even to my own self. It's pure that I just want you to know that I love you, no more

invincible

Follow through
Make your dreams come true
Don't give up the fight
You will be alright

'Cause there's no one
Like you in the universe
Don't be afraid
What your mind consumes
You should make a stand
Stand up for what you believe

And tonight we can truly say
Together we're invincible
During the struggle, they will pull us down
But please, please, let's use this chance to turn things around
And tonight we can truly say
Together we're invincible

Do it on your own
It makes no difference to me
What you leave behind
What you choose to be

And whatever they say
Your soul's unbreakable
During the struggle, they will pull us down
But please, please, let's use this chance to turn things around
And tonight we can truly say
Together we're invincible, together we're invincible

During the struggle, they will pull us down
But please, please, let's use this chance to turn things around
And tonight we can truly say
Together we're invincible, together we're invincible

extreme

It's full, but full of darkness.
So dark but then become so white, but it's empty.
It's empty and silent. It's like you're standing alone in the middle of white and covering by the silence.
Then the silence like domentor makes you scared.
You're so scared, so you close your eyes.
But after a while when you open your eyes you can see nothing.
You can see nothing cause the white is too bright and blind your eyes.
Your eyes become so sick, your eyes want to let their tears down to decrease their sickness, but the air is so cold and freezing the tears.
They're frozen and feeling nothing.
Feeling nothing is more scary than even you feel so sick.
So sick until you think you could give up.
But instead of giving up you just walking by don't know where have to go.
So then you decided to keep quiet and yeah just it!

By the way, I don't know what the words above mean haha
may be it's like when the day doesn't know the time cause the black clouds cover the sun.

Like mathematics

You are like mathematics.
From you, I got many benefits, that's why I love you.

You are like mathematics.
You make me learn how to add my happiness and increase my sadness. You tell me the way to times my spirit and share my secret.

You are like mathematics.
You have so many formulas which make me confused. Sometimes I can't understand you coz you are like mathematics, difficult.

You are like mathematics, give me a headache to think about you.

Like mathematics you often make me afraid. It's like when your teacher announces the names in remedial list.
I'm afraid to be the name which is mentioned.

But however you are, I can't leave you coz you're like mathematics, I need you to help me through this life. I hope I could be your calculator.

my love

my love is not like a bluetooth which would fail to send signals of my love at a distance of 10 meters more, but my love is like a satellite that will find you wherever you are to emit my rays love

sometimes you just don't understand what you feel

today I really felt tired, maybe this is the accumulation of my fatigue for about 1 month. This morning I realized that my body started to show something different that when interpreted into words roughly like this would happen: "hey! do not you know I'm not okay?" but whatever happens I should still go to school today, because life never wants to wait either for any reason, humans can only go forward because in fact there was nothing else to do besides human remains to move forward.

then I went to school. school today walking just so so, nothing special. after school I had an appointment with my brother, actually he is my sister's boyfriend as well, so don't be surprised if I've already considered him as my own brother. he knows me well. I just love him as I loved my sister. he is on vacation and it seemed only today, the time we had to share. he came to my school alone by motor. then we sat in the park started to chat while watching a soccer match in the field of my school. he patiently listened to all my babble which is unclear. earlier when I sent him a message, I said there are so many things I'd like to tell. on my mind I know there are so many things I'd like to tell, but I was confused like what and how to tell, too many things till make me frustrated, I'm just afraid when I told him all, I could not bear and finally cried. I did not want him to see me crying, I mean this is so annoying to cry in front of someone you know would be worried about your grief, though he always said "I'll lend my shoulder to you to cry on, my lil sister" but still I do not want to cry in front of him.

and I was so dizzy with the contents of my head that did not want to come out too. finally we decided to go home because it was hardly evening and nothing else I could tell him. then my brother took me home. during the trip I did not say anything, and he seemed to know me having badmood. when we arrived near the alley near my house, I came down and just say "bye" to him. I left him without saying thank you at all, although he was willing to come all the way from his home to spend his time listening to my story, how brash I am! while walking toward the house I realized my folly, I really felt guilty and uncomfortable to my brother. so when I thought my brother had reached his house I immediately called him and expressed him my gratitude, he laughed and said "you just calling me to only say thanks?" "yeah" I replied, and at least I feel better afterwards.

maybe sometimes we just don't really understand what we feel, sometimes we feel really frustrated with our own stupidity, but that's no excuse for us to make people who we love and love us feel worried and annoying :)

everyone is an inspiration

everyone is an inspiration
you are my inspiration
she is his inspiration
they are our inspiration
may be we're their inspiration.. who knows? ;)

the important one is I hope that I can be your inspiration :)
just like
newton made gravitation as his inspiration
isn't seen but so meaningful